Realizations

October 14, 2009                         12ish am  Tuesday night

 

            So I know a lot of you said that you liked my “journal” entry the best. Well if you would like to read more journally things (AKA feeling things) I copied what I wrote last night right before I went to bed. Enjoy:

 

Wow, I really don’t even know where to begin. I just love life so much right now. Coming to Australia has literally been the best decision I’ve ever made in my life! I think it’s just because I have gotten to know myself so well. I literally have come to peace with myself and who I am. It’s great. I find myself being nothing but happy!! Really I can’t remember ever feeling consistently happy day after day in my life. Maybe when I was little but that was so long ago I can’t recall it. I’m perfectly content with my life and the direction it’s heading. I’m not worried about boys (so much. It would be unhuman to not worry at all.) I mean I really don’t like anyone a lot and I don’t even think I want a relationship right now.

            Some of the things I have learned about myself and in general include: 1. Quiet time and time to myself and having to listen to myself even though it can be miserable at times is critical for my peace of mind 2. I hate routine. This has been prevalent all along, however, I have just realized it. I’m pretty sure that’s why my gym routines never end up working out. Here I just do whatever I feel like doing. Run/walk/ classes. Even the classes differ in day and time every week. Different classes too. I think that’s why I love classes here too (school classes). I only have classes twice a week, leaving my week open to do whatever I want. At Ohio State it’s obvious b/c I never liked going to work on a schedule and classes so often every week at the same time drove me crazy! The only reason I went to work at the same time just about every week was because I knew my friends would be there so work was bearable then. 3. I can live without my family and I thrive independently. Don’t get me wrong I love my family and friends but I’m just so peaceful here all by myself that I love not feeling confined by my parents or anyone and always letting them now where I am or what I am doing. 4. I am an outgoing person. I didn’t realize this until Patrick and Molly about beat me down when I said I wasn’t. After thinking about it. Yes I am. I do tend to talk quit often and I’m not afraid to give my opinion on most issues. I think that when I was younger I was really outgoing and I loved my life then. Then I started to feel pressures to conform to be “perfect” so I became more shy b/c not talking seemed better than being judged in a bad way. I was afraid to show who I really am, which brings me to my next point. 5. I know who I am and I’m not afraid to show it because I think someone won’t like me for it. If they don’t like me than that’s their problem. I think I naturally have a very hard/bitch attitude and sometimes I don’t show it because I’m afraid a guy won’t like me.  Well eventually my lovely bitchy attitude will come shining through so they might as well get it from the beginning. 6. I love hanging out with guys. They aren’t all about gossip and they just simply want to have a good time. I’m adopting this policy and taking my days one at a time now. 7. I need to indulge in life’s pleasures more frequently. The Aussie’s big night to go out is Wednesday (b/c it’s hump day!) and then if they don’t have something to do they will go out on the weekends. But you don’t HAVE to go out on weekends. They usually just drink at each other’s houses and stuff too because it’s too expensive to go out all the time. I think this is great because they just do what they feel like doing and things turn out ok. They aren’t worried about always going out on weekends and having to party it up to have fun (well at least this is my impression I’m getting). Actually the more I think about it the more I think that a lot of people are like this just not people I tend to hang out with. I’ve been thinking that if I just chill my life out and go out when I want and do what I want then I will enjoy life so much more. 8. I’m a more peaceful person than party-get-drunk all the time person. I’ve know this but I’m just glad that I don’t feel pressure from the Aussie’s to be the latter person :)

 

None journally things:

 

            Well today we had an excursion in Northbridge. Nothing exciting really at all.  It was actually quit boring b/c it was a guided tour thing. Ugh stupid class today. Afte that though I was going into town and I got stopped to join a Congo Line b/c some girl was trying to make the longest line to win a free trip to Brazil. It was cool to participate in. I hope she got it! My friends were in it with me too but then 3 of them bailed. I don’t understand why they left. It’s not like we were waiting forever. Plus, if I was trying to get a free trip to Brazil I wouldn’t want people leaving my line!

            On my second assignment for Planetary Science I got another 30/30! I was soo happy. I didn’t think I would get another one at all. But I guess he liked it! I looked at all the other grades on the table too (haha yes they were all there, well those who hadn’t taken them yet) and I only saw one other 30. It made my night :D

            I’m actually going to stop here b/c I’m tired and I still have to work on my creative writing assignment. I don’t want to tire myself out with so much writing! Hehe Love you all <3

 

One Hell of a Week

 So much has happened recently I don’t even now were to begin. I also haven’t finished writing about my trip yet. I have been so busy lately it’s really running into my great mood that I have had here. Well when I got back I realized that an assignment was due on the day I got back and the turn in time was before I even got back into the city. I emailed my teacher though and told him that I had been gone a week and couldn’t find anywhere what date it was due before I left. He just said thanks. I hope it’s not a lot of points off. Then last Sunday (wow it’s really been that long since I updated?) I remember I had an assignment due Tuesday. So I was up until about 5 in the morning Monday finishing that. Ok enough with boring stuff....

 

Wednesday my new Aussie friend Chris (yes the one from the blog before for those of you who know). Actually I’m going to talk about my previous blog a little before I go into this story. My previous blog I know I said I was embarrassed. I’m really not embarrassed by those of you who I know read my blogs. Like Yiayia and Papou, Yiayia, Aunt Mary, my parents , sisters and good friends. It’s just that my blog is public (I guess I could change it but I don’t think I want to, thinking about it though) and I don’t know who reads it. I guess I should have just said I don’t want certain people to catch what I say. Then I would be embarrassed. I have no problem sharing that information with most of you and I’m glad most of you thought it was the best part of my blog. I thought it was too... of course it was because it was the only part that had to do with feelings. Those are always the most interesting ;)

Anyways, Wednesday Chris showed us this club place in downtown Perth. It was called Carnegie’s and it was so cool! It was Wednesday night so they had half priced cocktails and a whole menu of drinks. This menu was like 3 pages long. Things like Long Islands, Georgia Peachs, and even a lot of drinks I’ve never heard of but they were good too :) Chris brought a friend and our German friend Weibke met us there so there were about 7 of us. We would buy drinks and let each other try them because we’ve never heard of a lot of them. They played music and we drank, sang and danced all night long! I don’t know if it’s because guys were with us or because it’s just not common here, but we were on the dance floor for about half the night and no guys came and danced up on us or anything like that with any of us girls. I wasn’t really paying attention but I didn’t see it happen anywhere all night. There was one guy who asked Patrick if we were dating though and when Patrick said no the kid asked me to dance. I said no because he looked about 15 and i just did not want to dance with him at all but the point is that I didn’t feel grossed out all night and the one time a guy would have danced he asked. I think that’s great! I HATE going to clubs and bars on campus at OSU because guys always come up to you and just start dancing with you and most of the time I don’t want them to! I like just dancing to be fun not anything gross like they do. They sing too but not like they do in Australia. I’m pretty sure we sang just as much if not more than we danced. I just absolutely loved it! I want to go back again!

Friday night was Oktoberfest. I guess Oktoberfest like originated in Germany and for those of you who’ve never heard of it, it’s just a big drunken party. It was put on by a student organisation that puts it on every year through campus. They had 5,000 tickets and sold out of tickets. This thing was HUGE. Everyone upon entry got a free stein and they had two different bands playing. We pretty must stayed at the German band the whole night because even though we couldn’t tell what they were saying, we ilked their music and they were the funniest to dance to. We weren’t really sure how you danced to them so we just jumped up and down and kicked our legs. It was a ridiculously good time. Only Molly, Patrick and I went because Sara doesn’t drink so she didn’t want to go. Which I don’t understand because she goes out with us to bars and stuff and like Wednesday she had one drink but when it comes to the biggest and best party of the year she doesn’t want to go? Confusing. Anyways, it was one of my favourite nights here by far. Carnegie’s is my second. We met up with our friend Drew and the four of us just had a blast. Everyone that I’ve ever met on campus was there and even people that I really haven’t ever talked to before I made conversation with lol. There was a German guy to there that we met who barely spoke any English at all. We didn’t talk to him for long haha

Yesterday Patrick, Molly and I went to Freo to go to their markets. I got a henna tattoo on my right wrist and I loooove it! The girl who did mine had a tree on her right hand and for some reason lately I love trees. So I fell in love with it but I wanted something small just to begin with. So I got the Hindu symbol for meditation, relaxation and like worship. It’s pretty and I love it! I never would get a real tattoo and this lasts about 3 weeks so I’m very happy with it. I was thinking about looking up how to make the henna so I could give myself tattoos whenever I wanted. I’m sure it can’t be that hard to mix together. It turns out brown instead of black too so I think it looks better.

Hanging out with Molly and Patrick so much lately has really made us closer I think. We seem to be getting along very well and I just love it! I brought it up yesterday to them but I think one of the reasons I’m so happy here is because I’m hanging out with guys more. Back at home I never hang out with guys. I find it hard and just an annoyance basically. But here I would say 50% of my friends are guys. And for some reason, very recently, I’ve been talking and hanging out with more guys then girls or about even. I talk to Chris and Patrick just about every day and I love it. Guys carry so much less drama than girls do and they just seem to be in happier moods naturally more than girls do. I think I easily feed off of guys positive energy and that’s one of the reasons I’m so happy here. They don’t bring up stupid topics or gossip a lot. They just want to have fun. And I love it! I’m making it a goal of mine to start making more guy friends when I get back to the states. I’m sick of always hanging out with girls haha I will say though that Molly never gets on my nerves. She’s too easy going to be any kind of annoying :)

Well I was up till like 5 again last night working on some assignments. I still have some more to do. For my Creative Writing class we have to start a rough draft of our story and I’m not sure what I want my story to be. So I need to start working on that. I have a couple of ideas but none seem good enough so I need to get cracken! Oh and did you know that they sent a missile to the moon? They were trying to create dust to see if they could find water and stuff.. I guess they did. I wonder what future findings this will bring! Love you all!! <3

Oops

Crap... part of the last blog wasn't supposed to be in there. Part of it was from my journal and I guess I forgot to edit that part out. Please disregard the first paragraph of the last blog if you got it on email. I'm so embarrassed :I Thanks!

Best Trip Ever!!

Omg where to even begin.

 

We had to leave our flats at 6 in the morning for the taxi to take us into downtown Perth. The trip was meeting at 6:45 but we didn’t end up leaving till about 7:30. We were lucky enough to have a brand new bus but at about 8:00 we had already broken down twice. At 8:01 set out again and at 8:01 we broke down again. Literally I’m pretty sure we were on the road for a full 30 seconds haha. But Peter (our guide) seemed to be somewhat of a mechanic so he fixed it and we were on our way!

 

 The first thing we did was stop at the Pinnacles desert. From pictures and whatnot I always thought it was just a place with a couple of rock looking things that and you could just simply look at them. Well all of the pictures I must have been looking at were very misleading. It’s literally a desert of them! There was soo many! It completely took me off guard. And surprisingly there is even like a little museum you can go into and look around before you go see the Pinnacles. It tells you about them and how they think they might have been formed. According to the museum they think they were either trees that have been destroyed and then were made into rocks somehow (I forget the term they used) or that they are just deposits of the earth and were simply made. All of them aren’t uncovered either. Hills cover a lot of them and they don’t go digging them up they just wait for the land to expose them. So they were between hills and they kind of did look like rock trees but not all of them. Anyways there were some in really funny forms and they were really cool to look at.

 

After Pinnacles I’m pretty sure we stopped at a beach to eat lunch. Just about everyday for lunch we had sandwiches and it was funny because they lettuce we used had sand all in it. It was funny because you would eat your sandwich and then hear yourself crunching sand, even though I really couldn’t taste it. The last day thought we had a Sausage Sizzle, so that was fun After lunch, or maybe before, pretty sure after though, we went sand boarding! It was sooo much fun! At first I was hesitant because I thought it would be a lot different or harder then snow boarding and even though it’s not the same, it’s basically the same. You don’t go as fast, I mean you still go fast but you tend to go more to one side also. They hill wasn’t very big and people were definitely leaning. The first time I went down I didn’t go fast at all because I didn’t put any wax on the bottom of the board, and you need to do that I guess. The second time I loaded the stuff on and I FLEW. Molly, Sara, and I were racing and even though I got a push, I didn’t need it. I was at the bottom when they were about half way down. I might have started a tad bit earlier too though but the wax definitely works lol You are supposed to sit in a Titanic pose (when Rose has her arms out the side in the front of the boat) and if you start to drift to one side put your hand down to straighten you out. Well I did good and went straight the whole way down :) And at the end I almost got pummeled by Sara but funny enough Molly crashed and burned before she could reach me. Haha  Definitely good times. On the other side of the sand dunes was the Indian Ocean too. It was tiring walking up and down the dunes but definitely worth it!!

 

That night we stayed in a hostel. And it was always how I pictured a hostel. Big rooms and not so nice. I mean it wasn’t horrible but bunk beds and everything. It wasn’t bad though and we barbequed out on the grill that night. There was another group there with the same company we were on and their guide helped us cook because Peter (ours) claimed, “If I cook you’ll all end up sick and with the runs”. Haha so we always had to cook ourselves. But that night we were making Teriaki chicken and we put everything on the Barbie. I mean even the noodles lol. He just threw it all on there and cooked it and it was actually pretty good! That night we slept with 9 in a room and some people snored on our trip so it was a little hard to sleep and it was cold but tolerable.

 

On my trip there was people from everywhere. Most of the people were older too or my age. There was a guy from Poland, he was about 27. A couple from Poland, who were in their early thirties I think. 6 people from Germany, four girls and two guys. They were all my age or a couple years older. Two of the girls are actually au pairs here in Perth so I think we will be hanging out a little. They were so nice! One guy from Mexico. Three girls from England.  Two other American girls besides my group (Me, Molly, Sara and Patrick). And one Aussie! The whole group got along GREAT! I’m pretty sure everyone was bummed about it ending. Some of us got together the night we got back and hung out for a little bit because most people are leaving. The Auz is from the Perth area though so I think we are going to hang out with him too. It really was a great trip because of the people! I will update more on the other days later because I don’t want this post to take 100 years to read. And I have to go to class :( I will say though that this trip definitely didn’t make me want to do school work anymore.

 

Love you all <3